birthday bitch

Sorry it’s been awhile, with the vegas trip and finals my time has been limited. But I just read that last post before I started to write and it’s so funny how quickly things changed. I’ve been such an a-hole the last couple of weeks!!! I’m so sorry for those of you who have been annoyed with me. I especially want to apologize to my wonderful co-workers who not only have to deal with me on a daily basis but who have also been (moderately) tolerant of my cranky-ass.

But its only been a month and India has already left me, I’m back to complaining about petty things, excessive road rage and spending ridiculous amounts of money I don’t have, on frivolous things.

This post was supposed to be about call centers but I’m afraid I won’t give it justice in my current state of mind, it may be better for me to blog about nothing.

So what the hell is it? What brings me back here again? Is it my environment? I have to factor in the fact that my birthday is slowly approaching and I will hit “that” age, the age that I will either lie about or no longer reveal. I do always get a little crazy during this time of year.
But what was it about India that made me happy that I no longer feel anymore? What is it about my life right now that I can’t feel that way all the time?

I guess i would love to blame it on my environment. I would love to just btch about the fact that i get up in the morning go to work, study, go to school, study, annual bridesmaid duties (different brides) and sit in Rt. 1 traffic for over 50% of my day. This is all i do (along w/occassional drinking/goin out during breaks), how is it possible for me to be in a good mood ever!

But then again thats a choice...

Then again i love my job, i just had the best semester of my life, i love being a big part of a wedding & awesome bachelorette parties (bahamas, vegas, miami) and sittin in traffic is the only time in the day i get to myself.

So then again its really pretty great, but yet i still btch

I think it really has to be a conscious choice, i would love to be that person that is always in a good mood but i know its impossible. I just have to remind myself to make that choice every morning...

do i want to be the villian or the superhero today?

(that's it there's my epiphany, i needed this, thanks for listening!)